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There's not much that I can add at this late stage to [what] [has] [already] [been] [said]. It's sick, but what I'm finding worse, and as low as the terrorists that started this whole fucking mess, is the retalliation towards the Muslim community of the countries where these people take no joy in this awesome atrocity. I have a friend who has been frowned upon. Saying that he was responsible is like saying that I am responsible for the Yorkshire Ripper. Saying all Americans are responsible for the Oklahoma Bomber, or that all Pakistanis are responsible for the Man Who Killed 100 Boys. Complete Bullshit.

Now, I'm not saying that the people who were affected by this should sit back and give up, but the hate should be directed into the right place. The Muslim religion (which I think is Islam, but I've never been big in Religion) teaches Tolerance. Teaches Peace. And it was only the extremists that have taken the wrong words, and started possibly World War III. I really did think that the world would end on the 11th Of September, 2001. I'm only thankful that it didn't. If I thought that the words that I type wouldl make a scrap of difference to someone who has been touched by this would make a difference, then I would say a lot more than I am doing, but I'm afraid nothing I can say or hope will change this. Will make this all turn back. Will make Bruce Willis come and save the fucking day. I have to remember, it's not a movie, it's not a make-believe April the 1st joke *although I do wish it was* but in actual fact thousands of people have died, and I don't care whether they were British or not. Please, don't send flowers, save the money for the help funds that WILL be set up soon.

I spent Tuesday till Wednesday at Mikes, drinking Tia Maria and watching films. Mel Gibson in What Women Want, and Arachnophobia *I could only just watch it*. I can't stop crying, I cried all Wednesday. I don't wanna leave Mike. I couldn't help thinking that maybe it was the last time that I stayed at his house. Maybe I'll never see his dogs/cats again... Then I felt guilty for the people who WILL never see their loved ones again, and cried some more.

I never was any good at things like this, I keep my feelings hidden too much.