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Bloody hell, I'm in the computer labs again! What is going on? Oh yeah, I'm working!
I’ve almost finished my Culture essay, but I’m sat on a computer right in front of the queue for people to get to computers. Argh! I wanna get on Net.Goth.

Last night I was well down, but I couldn’t get to livejournal to say anything. It mostly has sorted out my problems for the last year and a half. I haven’t had anyone really help, although last night I gave [Grim/Perf] a call. I was at my wits end, what with this coursework, and a million and one other things to do this week, including packing to go home. *mope* It was nice to be able to call someone who had an outside view on things, even if it meant he didn’t know the whole story *then again, I can talk for England*.

I’m not someone who does things by half. I either don’t do something, or I jump in, headfirst. I can’t decide if what I’ve got is absolutely steadfast, or as fragile as snow. The thing is, with either one, I’m holding on so tight that it’s either going to get smothered or break apart in front of me. Fuck I’m emotionally immature to deal with this, I don’t really understand how I can feel this deeply about something so soon. Dammit it seems right to me, but it’s not right is it? Argh! Mindfuck-- I just wish I could help out on other people’s problems like I usually can, but there’s still things that I can’t fix. I can never fix my own, that’s why I’ve had an [online diary] for so long. Well, this post was to still get it outta my system. I’ve only got one more test to worry about, and this coursework is very nearly finished. Yay! Pub for Mofette!
bai bai o.O;;