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Jan. 28th, 2002 04:30 pmBah, feeling sick *probably due to lack of food* and kinda sad. I've skived one lecture already, and I've only started back today.
Me and [Matt] went to Phono on Saturday, cos he'd promised someone he would, and cos he would see his friends, Alistair and Rob, and cos it's fun there. I put on a top, because it was co-ordinated with the rest of me, and he told me it wasn't flattering. This was a good thing, because I don't wanna go out if I don't look nice. It's nicer if you feel good. So, I went through about 4 other tops, but they didn't work. End of this bit, I borrowed something from a flatmate, which looked nice. I felt alright, and we went out.
When we got there, I don't know why, but I was feeling very soppy, and I had kinda forgotten, well, not forgotten, but you know what I mean how good looking he is, and how much I loved him. I decided to tell him that he looked nice in his Rancid tee, and did. He replied with "I know, that's why I wear it". Nothing wrong with that you say, but I don't know what I look good in. I don't have people there giving me compliments all the time, so I don't know what to do. I looked around. Everyone in the room was looking their best. Tiny little tank-tops on the girls, the blokes all knew they looked good. I can try on like 6 outfits, and still feel like shit. I ended up in tears. Matt, as ever held me and made me stop. I did calm down a bit, and when another girl thought I was trying to steal her man *I thought he was a woman!* it made my night. Someone threatened by me? What's going on?!
LLoyds bank have again fucked up. I got my card this morning, and I went to the cashpoint, and it told me that my pin code was wrong. I am still without access to cashpoints. It's going to take a week for the number to get to my house. *mope* Asswipes.
Final thing, then I'll go home and put this rapidly defrosting chicken in a freezer... I did an essay last term. I finished it within the dates, I spent over 6 hours on it, I thought it was good. I got the mark today. Fucking 47. That's like, shit. I think I'll go shoot myself in the head now. Is a crunch corner good ammo for a bb gun?
