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Thankyou to everyone who replied to my last post. I'm feeling a lot better now, especially as [Kuang] and [Malaise] called me completeley out of the blue. Thankyou guys.

I knew if I said what I wanted to, then I'd upset somene. One of the messages replying to this was deleted, I can only assume, by that person. Oh well.... I called Matt last night, and said more things. I got it off my chest, and if it's not going to solve anything, which it probably won't, because there's nothing to solve. damn my mind... it needs an overhaul, possibly involving lots of alchohol. At least it'd take my mind of things for a bit. I think that's what I need. Less time on my own doing nothing apart from studying and thinking *my brain is dangerous when left to think* and more time doing things. I need to occupy myself. stop being rude there...

Um... been put completeley out of thought by the fact that I now have Whitby accommodation and am now perking. It's a cottage, very cheap, and I have [Sweet_cyanide] to thank for it. *perk*

[Matt] I love you, I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to loose you. I'm sorry, I'll try not to say anything stupid again *going to be hard, I know*. I'll shut up now, and go back to irc. If you're around, please say hi. I love you.