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I feel useless. completeley and totally useless. I'm not expecting sympathy, or anything like that, I'm just writing about how I feel right now. I want to cry. A good cry once in a while does you good. I've not cried in a while cos I've been feeling good about myselves, and I think I need to. But I feel pathetic for wanting to cry. I stop myself everytime I well up, and then spend the next five minutes trying to calm myself down. I need somoene that I can cry on, someone I can sob to my heart's content, and not feel bad, but there's no-one around atm that I feel I can. Oh well. Gues sI'll curl up in bed and try to convince everyone that everything is alright. There's nothing specific the matter, just.. bah I don't know any more.

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I've just woken up from the arms of Matt. Peacefully still sleeping behind me.
Last night, I got this post on my guestbook
entry 197
Pseudonym: Remember Me
contact: Kissmyfuckingass@hahaha.com
stalk them: Thier Page
message: Remember me? Stretch marks got any better lately? I can't believe we ever used to be so close. The though of you repulses me. Ha Ha Now I think back on it you where sad and lonely ever then!!! You whole life is turning into a mess before your eyes and there is nothing you can do about it. Don't forget I'll always be there watching you and waiting for you! You never see me but I see you, not as often now I must admit but you have no idea you really don't. You hurt me so it's only fair that I return the favour. See you soon Aileen. Love X
date: 7:54 pm - Tuesday, March 19, 2002

It makes me laugh to think how wrong this person can be. Obviously I wasn't that mean to them, otherwise they'd tell me who it was. That in itself is pathetic, and the fact that they won't tell me just shows them up for the immature person they are. My "life is turning to a mess before my eyes" is it? Well, I'll forget about the fact that I have a fantastic boyfriend who I love, and who loves me and the fact that I'm passing Japanese and will be living there in August. The fact that I have all the friends I could need at University and beyond is obviously null and void too. all this person has done has made me realise how great I've got it at the moment. Thankyou anonymous person. Oh and by the way, if it happens again, I will be contacting your internet provider, who can tell me EXACTLY who has been acessing my webpage. Oh and whoever, get a dictionary. Thankyou :)

What do you think to this? Official sounding enough? Help!

Dear Sir/Madam

I hope you could help me. I have a personal website, and someone has been leaving me abusive messages on my guestbook. Using an IP trace at http://www.ripe.net and the IP address 194.36.152.252 I have found that it is coming from Halesowen College.

I was wondering if you could tell me who has been acessing http://leelee.pitas.com and http://leelee.signmyguestbook.com the offending entries can be found at number 197, 179 and 170. I am concerned that it is someone that I do know, and would rather not come into contact with.

Also, flaming messages like this are probably a violation of the rules of use of the computer. Any action taken will be greatly recieved.

Thankyou very much
Miss Aileen Rippon

http://www.the-freak.co.uk

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Not acheiving anyting by being online, so I'm off back home. I don't really wanna go home on Monday, too many things here to miss. Nevermind. Oh and Halesowen College are arses. Not an E-mail address in sight on their webpage. Bah!