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I hate this

I was going to post about how great my weekend is, then I find someone here was hit by a train and is dead. In Japan. One of my best friends dad's died. There's something nasty happening in my goth scene back home.

Why do I think everything is perfect? I thought my life was perfect and didn't know that I was being lied to and about to be crushes. I think everyone else's lives are perfect, and am shocked when it all falls down. I'm fucking stupid.

Some people had the best whitby ever, others the worst. I am glad I wasn't there, because I know mine would have been right in the middle of all that shit, and a really bad one.

The person dying here has really hit home. It's soo far away from his home (Hawaii) and I'm glad I didn't know them, becayse I'd be in a worse state than I am right now

I feel the break coming on. I haven't cried in weeks, I was about to post about how great my life is here, and how I've been feeling great.

And then the world shits on me and mine.