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Sorry, I've been neglecting my diary! Really should pay it more attention, don'cha think? Well, I've not got a real reason. Although, there is a huge project that is due in on Wednesday. I've got to have my practical work and my paperwork done by then. I feel sick. I've been working since Saturday, and it's not done yet. I dont' want it to go not finished, but I'm finding it so hard to do. Something is stopping me from working. Maybe I know that I'm going to fail. I don't think that I can kid myself any more. I don't think that I'm going to get into Leeds. They won't want a failure, but then again, what have I ever suceeded at? I've not ever won anything, my webpage is a piece of crap. Everyone has a better one than me, and they don't get complaints about the colours. ARGH, why am I so angry? Anyway, back to now.

I'm watching Edward Scissorhands right now. I've not seen it before, and I've got the horriblest feeling, and I've had it right from the beginning, that something awful is gonna happen. There's no way that this is a happy film. Then again, who ever does live happily ever after? I don't know one person who has. Not one. Even the princesses die. There's no room in this world for being nice it seems. People can be nasty to complete strangers. Our whole life is spent trying to impress, or to show off. Why should we need to if everyone is nice? OH shit, now I've gone outside and had a go at my mum. There's nothing to drink in the whole bloody house, and I'm so fucking stressed that I've just had a go at er. I need to relax. Wednesday, I'm getting fucking hammered. No doubt about that. And I need a haircut, I want to be pretty. Oh fuck, what is going on? I don't want to be liek this. I've not been liek this in ages, not now, not when I've ust about got everything sorted. Fuck, I need sleep.

Um... I bought a nice new t-shirt, it's got Angel written on it in multicoloured glitter on a pink sleeveless t-shirt. There, I did it. I ended on a happy note. Ha!