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[mofette]

I don't think I could cry any more if I wanted to. I'm all done, and there's no-one here to cry on. I was up 'till 5am last night. 5am sorting out my head, and I'm no closer than I was before.

I still don't have any reason as to why I can't sort out anything I try to. Any fears I have, and problems, when I bring them into the open I end up feeling worse than I did before, and that's not solving anything. I try communicating through this, but that doesn't seem to work. I try subtle hints, nothing. I tell someone what's wrong, I end up the bad guy. I'm fed up of that. I can do my Uni work, I can do domestic things, but I can't seem to do real life. Things that matter. Things that matter soo much to me. More than anything. The only reason I haven't dropped out of Uni is that I woudn't be in Leeds any more.

Why should I be the bad guy again, just for wanting to sort me out?

Comments

[ms-rivet.livejournal.com]

Sorry you feel bad,im finding real life hard to deal with at the mo as well having lost the man I love,if you want a sympathetic ear im here,though i know we don't know eachother really,i don't like to see you in distress
*hugs*

[mofette.livejournal.com]

thankyou very much

*hugs*

appreciated

[adwin.livejournal.com]

your not a bad guy for wanting you sorted out, everyone needs that occasionally. I'm sure your friends would happily be there for you if you need then :)

Your lucky I like ya or I'd have phoned you by now :)