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May. 20th, 2007 09:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mofetteI've finally worked out what I'm getting paid for - stress. I work hard, play hard, and then ensure that the staff are ok, the customers are ok and everyone is having fun.
In reality, it's more like a social crutch, a shrink you don't pay for. Anyone who is upset, I comfort and make sure they're ok. The staff occasionally come in on a come down, or upset with the world or a customer may upset them. I make sure that they can continue and get along. It's draining, it really is. My drug of choice is alcohol - I love it but it's no longer an enjoyable past time, it's more like a way of life at this point.
The downside to all this is that I can't sleep. Last night I didn't get to sleep 'till around 6. I had people in and out of my house and movements and birds singing and all kinds of things going on and I couldn't stop worrying about money about work about livejournal and things like that. I have nightmares that I'm late for work, that something's gone wrong. I barred Weasel from FAB on Friday and I'm having concerns that I've not done it for the right reasons.
I'm not in 'till 7 tomorrow, so I think i'll be fine sleeping tonight but otoh there's all these other worries. I also missed Morrissons being open so I've got no Horlicks :(
Edit: Cat has some Toffee flavoured Horlicks. I may sleep well tonight!! :D
In reality, it's more like a social crutch, a shrink you don't pay for. Anyone who is upset, I comfort and make sure they're ok. The staff occasionally come in on a come down, or upset with the world or a customer may upset them. I make sure that they can continue and get along. It's draining, it really is. My drug of choice is alcohol - I love it but it's no longer an enjoyable past time, it's more like a way of life at this point.
The downside to all this is that I can't sleep. Last night I didn't get to sleep 'till around 6. I had people in and out of my house and movements and birds singing and all kinds of things going on and I couldn't stop worrying about money about work about livejournal and things like that. I have nightmares that I'm late for work, that something's gone wrong. I barred Weasel from FAB on Friday and I'm having concerns that I've not done it for the right reasons.
I'm not in 'till 7 tomorrow, so I think i'll be fine sleeping tonight but otoh there's all these other worries. I also missed Morrissons being open so I've got no Horlicks :(
Edit: Cat has some Toffee flavoured Horlicks. I may sleep well tonight!! :D
