Busy busy busy

[mofette]

I've finally worked out what I'm getting paid for - stress. I work hard, play hard, and then ensure that the staff are ok, the customers are ok and everyone is having fun.

In reality, it's more like a social crutch, a shrink you don't pay for. Anyone who is upset, I comfort and make sure they're ok. The staff occasionally come in on a come down, or upset with the world or a customer may upset them. I make sure that they can continue and get along. It's draining, it really is. My drug of choice is alcohol - I love it but it's no longer an enjoyable past time, it's more like a way of life at this point.

The downside to all this is that I can't sleep. Last night I didn't get to sleep 'till around 6. I had people in and out of my house and movements and birds singing and all kinds of things going on and I couldn't stop worrying about money about work about livejournal and things like that. I have nightmares that I'm late for work, that something's gone wrong. I barred Weasel from FAB on Friday and I'm having concerns that I've not done it for the right reasons.

I'm not in 'till 7 tomorrow, so I think i'll be fine sleeping tonight but otoh there's all these other worries. I also missed Morrissons being open so I've got no Horlicks :(

Edit: Cat has some Toffee flavoured Horlicks. I may sleep well tonight!! :D

Comments

[miss-behave.livejournal.com]

You were worried about Livejournal? NUKE IT!

[mofette.livejournal.com]

it was YOUR FAULT YOU WHORE!!

[miss-behave.livejournal.com]

Oi! I'm the attention whore around here! Go and find your own drama!

[ms-siobhan.livejournal.com]

Do you have a manager that you can talk too and offload onto?
Hope you have a good nights sleep tonight, I know its a cliche but its one thats true for me - things really do seem better after a decent nights sleep.

[mofette.livejournal.com]

I am a manager, anyone else would tell me just to chill. :) It's just hard I'll be fine. I think i'll use lj ;)

[claire-j.livejournal.com]

Ah, hope you feel better soon and get good sleep. I wouldn't worry about barring Weasel, he has been barred from most places and usually thoroughly deserves it. If he was causing problems and more work for yourself you did the right thing. In a position where you make big decsions, you'll always wonder whether you made the right decision, but you have to trust your gut instinct. DOn't let it worry you!

[mofette.livejournal.com]

I knew someone would know him. It's cool I know I'm ok we can just let him in next week if I'm wrong but it's always a niggle ;)

[panzerbjrn.livejournal.com]

Yup, that's what being a bar manager is like.
Now you know why the bartenders in old american movies always doubled as shrinks.

I hope you'll be ok though...

[mofette.livejournal.com]

I'll be fine I'm sure. Good night's sleep last night! :D

[lostlorelei.livejournal.com]

Hope you feel better & less stressy soon hun xxx

[mofette.livejournal.com]

I'm fine :) Thanks

[redcountess]

This post is setting of several alarm bells, namely the not being able to sleep and the alcohol. Have you considered that a bar manager role, even at the l33test bar in the world, may not be for you?

[mofette.livejournal.com]

I didn't mean the alcohol thing they way I think you've taken it, it's just that because I see it every day it's no longer a fun thing, it's part of work. I just don't feel like going out for fun any more!

[redcountess]

Ah, ok :)

Still, keep an eye on the sleep thing, perhaps it's worth gently reminding your cow-orkers that you are their manager now and you really should only be dealing with their problems if it's to do with work?

[arabella-jin.livejournal.com]

Oh! My baby! *hugs*
But you know the more you worry about shuteye the more you can't sleep. YOu just have too much on your plate. Could it be that you're getting used to your job? Are you taking things personally?
And I usually when shit hits the fan at my work I make a mental and physical exercise of leaving them outside the front door. There are times that I'm sitting outside my door for a few minutes to purge my stress/anger/etc before getting inside. Once inside, that's it; no more work thoughts. I actively, avoid them. After a while it becomes second nature. So, really does it worth loosing sleep for barring Weasel for the right reasons or not????????????? Seriously.

[web-kitten.livejournal.com]

you're too hard working!!!


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