Get the FUCK out of my way.

[mofette]

Fuck I'm in a bad mood. I haven't got a clue why. My stomach feels sick and I want to scream, punch things, throw things and cry all at once. I want to be held while sobbing uncontrollably. I want someone to kiss me on the forehead, wipe away my tears and tell me it's ok. I want to fall asleep on them, too exhausted to cry any more.

I've had a loverly day with mistressmalaise and polidori and Kitty. Ate too many fattening things, therefore no food for the next day or two. Went outside. Gah, I want to see people, but I don't want to leave the house. Was satin my chair in the lounge earlier, and was paranoid someone was sniper-rifle-targetting at my head. Hate those paranoid days.

#Uk_Goffs are talking about age, and teenagers. I hate when people mention my age, yes I probably make a bigger deal of it than they do, but it's my age. Why shouldn't I? I mean, do I LOOK 19? Do I ACT 19? People have guessed my age in the last week at 23 and 17. I don't want to wish my life away, but I want to be treated seriously. Don't call me young again, ok :/

I can't think straight to pack. There's soo many people want to see me. More that I want to see. Some never bothered with that trip to see me, others did, on-spec. Was nice :) Others that I really wanted to see didn't bother. Oh well. This time next week I'll be 60,000 miles away. And more loneley than ever

Comments

[oh-so-british.livejournal.com]

If I were there I would want to hold you and comfort you. Wish I could do something. Just remember that I'm thinking of you and wishing you all the best.

*hugs*

[nurse-tish.livejournal.com]

I'm sad :( bout not getting to meet you... grrr at being sick. But remember i'm on a lj comment/Email...blah blah blah away :)

[emma-emily.livejournal.com]

I always assumed you were older than 19. Age is such a load of old bollox anyway. Its down to how you act. A couple of my best mates are 23 and im 31 - and im sure they act more grown up than me!

Anyway dont be lonely - i think you are thinking about stuff too much. Concentrate on the fact you have a lot of friends who like you muchly - thats always a good, good thing :o)