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[mofette]

Why do I give up so easily. I back down and give up on the things I want. Why? It's a stupid way of operating, but it does mean for an easier time on everyone else. I mean, if I give up and back down to someone else, then they get it, less hassle for them, and I be quiet and hide. I still don't really know why I do this... Fuck it.

I gave up on something else today. Threw in the towel as it were. I don't *really* mind, but hey, it's killed a part of my perk.

I went to the opening ceremony of the University. Some people gave speeches. First was the President of the University. He spoke in Japanese with a translator. Then a couple of other people, and then a Japanese lady. She spoke in simple sentences in Japanese. I started of knowing what she was saying, then I lost it completeley. Everyone else in the whole fucking place was laughing. I cried. I coudln't believe that everyone understood and not me. I mean, that's the reason I'm here, and I can't even get the basics! what the fuck?! Then an American student made a speech. He said "What have you got to offer this University?" I have nothing. I couldn't stop crying. Thankfully no-one noticed! I calmed down after a while, then looked for my other Igurisu-jins. Not a single one of them had turned up. So I went off for the free food, and ate soo much sushi I feel sick! OH well.

BTW, there's a rather shit troll on #uk_goffs right now, so any Ops about, please come kick some ass :)

Comments

don't give up

[redcountess]

One thing the crapness off the last 18 months has taught me is never give up.

You're not just adjusting to a whole new country but a whole new culture, don't be too hard on yourself.

*hugs*

[awais.livejournal.com]

awww...honey. of course it's gonna be a bit difficult in the beginning, after all you're there to learn this right. it can't be expected that you will know everything already. don't worry about all of this, and don't be too hard on yourself. it's an oppurtunity not many people get, you can do this!! before you know it you will be all fluent and stuff ^_^

+hugs+

[minigoth.livejournal.com]

I am living abroad myself, and have lived in different countries. It DOES take time to adjust, but you will. I'm just relly envious, it's so cool of you going to Japan!

*hugs*

[lougarry.livejournal.com]

There is one thing my grandad always told us when we were kids and thats "It'll all come right"
And it will, so chin up :)
You'll ok...or I'll have to send some Kate Bush and Peter Gabriel songs over ;)

[(Anonymous)]

You sound like you're coping pretty well, far better than I would in your situation. I think I'd probably freak out and come home (but I'm crap at new things)

Anyway, hugs & stuff :)

nathan/hexa
(deleted my lj)

[stevek.livejournal.com]

In those famous (and friendly) words Don't Panic

And remember, Americans do have a bit of a gung ho attitude - the phrase "What have you got to offer this University?" is a bastardization of a speach made by a US President (might have been Kennedy or Roosevelt - can't recall which one).

Even so, his speach wasn't entirely unique... but that's what you *do* have to offer.. your wonderful uniqueness.

*hugs*

[needler.livejournal.com]

Have faith in yourself young jedi!
At least you bothered to turn up and tho you didnt understand everything you were there and that shows your taking things seriously!
For what its worth I beleave in you! Im proud of you knowing youve made a huge step and are so far from home and yet still holding together!
Stay sane kitten and if it comes to it there will be an emergency gummie parcel heading your way!

Love you x

[ms-rivet.livejournal.com]

If there is anything you really miss from England,let me know and im sure we can org some Mofette relief parcels to help! :)

[nurse-tish.livejournal.com]

There is gonna be 500000 little Moff directed boxes heading your way soon :D
Its all sooo different from what your used to... the flow will come to you soon and you'll be able to go with it :)
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