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Aug. 30th, 2002 12:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mofetteWhy do I give up so easily. I back down and give up on the things I want. Why? It's a stupid way of operating, but it does mean for an easier time on everyone else. I mean, if I give up and back down to someone else, then they get it, less hassle for them, and I be quiet and hide. I still don't really know why I do this... Fuck it.
I gave up on something else today. Threw in the towel as it were. I don't *really* mind, but hey, it's killed a part of my perk.
I went to the opening ceremony of the University. Some people gave speeches. First was the President of the University. He spoke in Japanese with a translator. Then a couple of other people, and then a Japanese lady. She spoke in simple sentences in Japanese. I started of knowing what she was saying, then I lost it completeley. Everyone else in the whole fucking place was laughing. I cried. I coudln't believe that everyone understood and not me. I mean, that's the reason I'm here, and I can't even get the basics! what the fuck?! Then an American student made a speech. He said "What have you got to offer this University?" I have nothing. I couldn't stop crying. Thankfully no-one noticed! I calmed down after a while, then looked for my other Igurisu-jins. Not a single one of them had turned up. So I went off for the free food, and ate soo much sushi I feel sick! OH well.
BTW, there's a rather shit troll on #uk_goffs right now, so any Ops about, please come kick some ass :)
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don't give up
Date: 2002-08-29 09:29 pm (UTC)You're not just adjusting to a whole new country but a whole new culture, don't be too hard on yourself.
*hugs*
Re: don't give up
Date: 2002-08-30 01:22 am (UTC)Re: don't give up
Date: 2002-08-30 02:07 am (UTC)But, uh, yeah. Beer outside Europe is a dicey proposition at best.
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Date: 2002-08-29 09:39 pm (UTC)+hugs+
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Date: 2002-08-30 01:31 am (UTC)I suppose I should get out more!
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Date: 2002-08-30 12:12 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2002-08-30 01:56 am (UTC)trust me, with this humidity, I wish I was in england
oh dear, I have problems! :)
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Date: 2002-08-30 05:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-30 12:41 am (UTC)And it will, so chin up :)
You'll ok...or I'll have to send some Kate Bush and Peter Gabriel songs over ;)
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Date: 2002-08-30 01:59 am (UTC)*cheers up majorly!*
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Date: 2002-08-30 01:33 am (UTC)Anyway, hugs & stuff :)
nathan/hexa
(deleted my lj)
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Date: 2002-08-30 02:01 am (UTC)thanks, I like to think I'm coping :) it'll get easier, I know this! :D
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Date: 2002-08-30 02:30 am (UTC)And remember, Americans do have a bit of a gung ho attitude - the phrase "What have you got to offer this University?" is a bastardization of a speach made by a US President (might have been Kennedy or Roosevelt - can't recall which one).
Even so, his speach wasn't entirely unique... but that's what you *do* have to offer.. your wonderful uniqueness.
*hugs*
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Date: 2002-08-30 03:10 am (UTC)"Ask not what your country can do for you. Ask what you can do for your country."
Actually, the "what have you got to offer this ..." is a pretty standard job-interview type question. But you're right that it's pretty much an attitude thing, an invitation to blow a mess of hot air...
(I may be american, but that doesn't mean I have american attitudes ;) )
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Date: 2002-08-30 03:30 am (UTC)which is something I can't do. It takes a lot for me to be able to boast about myself, like a job interview or suchlike.
it's hard being around so many americans (no offense) but their way is much different from the English!
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Date: 2002-08-30 05:13 am (UTC)The American Way
Date: 2002-09-12 07:10 pm (UTC)Re: The American Way
Date: 2002-09-13 12:04 am (UTC)I'd be glad to talk to you about it though, catch me at a quiet time (^_^)
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Date: 2002-08-30 03:24 am (UTC)I like that word
I want the kanji on a tee shirt! (^_^)
thanks steefu-san :)
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Date: 2002-08-30 02:31 am (UTC)At least you bothered to turn up and tho you didnt understand everything you were there and that shows your taking things seriously!
For what its worth I beleave in you! Im proud of you knowing youve made a huge step and are so far from home and yet still holding together!
Stay sane kitten and if it comes to it there will be an emergency gummie parcel heading your way!
Love you x
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Date: 2002-08-30 03:36 am (UTC)I'm holding out better than I thought I would. I think the amount of irc I'm getting is helping a lot! This will be decreased so that I can get along with people better. I think all I need is more confidence. something that generally comes from you guys, and you're a hell of a long way away!
But I know that you're proud of me, everyone is and it keeps me happy a hell of a lot of the time!
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Date: 2002-08-30 04:09 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-08-30 04:13 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-30 04:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-30 04:32 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-08-30 04:56 am (UTC)the airport is a long way away from me in real terms, however if it's possible I'll definately be there! (^_^)
no need to bring anything, although I do miss marmite (waits for the vegemite argument)
:)
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Date: 2002-08-30 08:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-08-30 04:23 am (UTC)Its all sooo different from what your used to... the flow will come to you soon and you'll be able to go with it :)
XX
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Date: 2002-08-30 04:58 am (UTC)god I love my friends :)