Headfirst

[mofette]

I hit the wall, came away with two broken legs and crippled arms.

I could tell it was coming, I felt it from a long way off. I cried last night. I hadn't cried in weeks, I was proud of how positive I'd been, and then this happens.

I lit bomb in my homestay. I told them I wasn't staying next semester. Actually, I told Okaasan, who then told everyone else. She seemed to do it in a "Isn't she a traitor" kind of way.

When she'd done this, and was out the room, I told my sister that I wanted to stay, but I wanted pink hair. She nodded in understanding. When Okaasan came back, the mood was definately different, and she could tell I had been crying. I helped her with her English pronounciation, getting her sorted between L and R, and then told her (In Japanese)

"I want to live here next semester, but the thing I want most in the whole world, is pink hair"

I was met with a reply of Da-me. This means "Not allowed". Maki argued my case, explained that I am a good student and well behaved. Da-me. Da-me fucking Da-me

I went to bed crying. Alone. My sister says I should wait, and that I've got time to change her mind, but my form went in yesterday morning. I don't know if I can change it any more. Maybe I should just dye my hair pink at Christmas, and save on dye and be blonde when I go back to the homestay, but then she's won.

How I wish the conversation would go
"I like Natural"
"Well I like being fucked really hard and given oral sex for hours on end but we can't always have what we want"

Just stay out of my way today.

Comments

[needler.livejournal.com]

/me curls up next to you and holds you tight.

miss you kitten,your not there for much longer !

x

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

Only another 6 months :/

I'm thinking of you always. Posted you a letter the other day too

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[needler.livejournal.com]

RAR!

thankyou,Im looking forward to it now!
I miss you so much xxx

[christhegoth.livejournal.com]

Are they bound by any type of agreement to look after you? This uberbitch mum is reducing you to tears, it might be time to show how hard you are ( bar the oral sex of course ). If she has to look after you and there is no restriction for hair colour in the system then tell her tough and lodge complaints about her if she tries to break the rules again.

Turn the tables on the bitch.

CTG

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

I think I should keep the peace. This society is very much based on rules, and although University said that I can keep my pink hair, I'd rather keep the peace.

[rainbowskye.livejournal.com]

*hugs* really feel for you hun. Why are people so silly about hair colour..if it's any comfort the hobgoblins' dad has banned me from going to any of the TA things I usually go with him to while mine is purple. Stupid people. *more hugs*
J xx

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

my parents say it's ok, and she's not my mother. I think I'm still swaying to doing it and saying a big fuck you.

[dooferlad.livejournal.com]

"Well I like being fucked really hard and given oral sex for hours on end but we can't always have what we want"

Well you only had to ask :o

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

*grins*

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

I don't think the japanese have oral sex :/

[dooferlad.livejournal.com]

?*&%@!!!

Poor things!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_wires/]

They do, as long as you don't show any pubic hair :D

[tithonus.livejournal.com]

i'm not sure how much you care about pleasing her anymore, given that you she seems to be entirely incapable of behaving in a civilised manner.. i'd have to agree with ctg that if you've reached the stage of not caring for her opinion - being upset aside - you should consider hardening yourself into a foad attitude.

many japanese have an insane attitude that compromise is a sign of weakness and will treat you like shit if you show such 'weakness'... as far as i can see the only way to stop them is to proverbially tell them to go fuck themselves. i obviously don't know, but i'd guess that she isn't as secure in her 'authority' and she seems, and if you were to very firmly stand up to her things would change for the better.

.. but obviously you know the situation far better than i..

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

I Don't know how much of a foad attitude I can have. I'm pretty much all for keeping the peace and not saying anything to upset anyone.

I think I'm settled with keeping the colours just to christmas, and seeing as though my job and parents don't mind in England, then I'll wait till I get back. Not like I'm missing out on any special occasions like weddings or funerals

sorry it took a while, wanted to give more than a one line response, but it still didn't turn out as well as I thought it would...

[tithonus.livejournal.com]

so the homestay ends at christmas? only 35 days to go, until you're free of her idiocy then. :-/
sounds like a reasonable enough attitude, although i think i'd be more bolshy.. you know what's right for you; roll on christmas.

[triple6.livejournal.com]

why are you talking funny. dye your hair pink. fuck them all. Sick fuckers

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

you're being weird

I don't know if you've come to loath me or what

*hides*

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[triple6.livejournal.com]

i dont hate u! I just think its sick that they think they can tell a grwon woman what colour to have her hair. The "y r u talking weird" question was just me wondering why you were talking weird!!

[dua.livejournal.com]

Honey, that really sucks and I'm sorry :-( *huggles lots*

Sorry, I can't think of anything to say :-( *hugs more*

Hope you feel better soon. x

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[mofette.livejournal.com]

Thankyou

God I need to treat my friends better