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I hit the wall, came away with two broken legs and crippled arms.
I could tell it was coming, I felt it from a long way off. I cried last night. I hadn't cried in weeks, I was proud of how positive I'd been, and then this happens.
I lit bomb in my homestay. I told them I wasn't staying next semester. Actually, I told Okaasan, who then told everyone else. She seemed to do it in a "Isn't she a traitor" kind of way.
When she'd done this, and was out the room, I told my sister that I wanted to stay, but I wanted pink hair. She nodded in understanding. When Okaasan came back, the mood was definately different, and she could tell I had been crying. I helped her with her English pronounciation, getting her sorted between L and R, and then told her (In Japanese)
"I want to live here next semester, but the thing I want most in the whole world, is pink hair"
I was met with a reply of Da-me. This means "Not allowed". Maki argued my case, explained that I am a good student and well behaved. Da-me. Da-me fucking Da-me
I went to bed crying. Alone. My sister says I should wait, and that I've got time to change her mind, but my form went in yesterday morning. I don't know if I can change it any more. Maybe I should just dye my hair pink at Christmas, and save on dye and be blonde when I go back to the homestay, but then she's won.
How I wish the conversation would go
"I like Natural"
"Well I like being fucked really hard and given oral sex for hours on end but we can't always have what we want"
Just stay out of my way today.
I could tell it was coming, I felt it from a long way off. I cried last night. I hadn't cried in weeks, I was proud of how positive I'd been, and then this happens.
I lit bomb in my homestay. I told them I wasn't staying next semester. Actually, I told Okaasan, who then told everyone else. She seemed to do it in a "Isn't she a traitor" kind of way.
When she'd done this, and was out the room, I told my sister that I wanted to stay, but I wanted pink hair. She nodded in understanding. When Okaasan came back, the mood was definately different, and she could tell I had been crying. I helped her with her English pronounciation, getting her sorted between L and R, and then told her (In Japanese)
"I want to live here next semester, but the thing I want most in the whole world, is pink hair"
I was met with a reply of Da-me. This means "Not allowed". Maki argued my case, explained that I am a good student and well behaved. Da-me. Da-me fucking Da-me
I went to bed crying. Alone. My sister says I should wait, and that I've got time to change her mind, but my form went in yesterday morning. I don't know if I can change it any more. Maybe I should just dye my hair pink at Christmas, and save on dye and be blonde when I go back to the homestay, but then she's won.
How I wish the conversation would go
"I like Natural"
"Well I like being fucked really hard and given oral sex for hours on end but we can't always have what we want"
Just stay out of my way today.
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Date: 2002-11-05 06:22 pm (UTC)miss you kitten,your not there for much longer !
x
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Date: 2002-11-05 08:44 pm (UTC)I'm thinking of you always. Posted you a letter the other day too
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Date: 2002-11-06 08:10 am (UTC)thankyou,Im looking forward to it now!
I miss you so much xxx
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Date: 2002-11-06 01:19 am (UTC)Turn the tables on the bitch.
CTG
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Date: 2002-11-07 07:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-11-06 02:13 am (UTC)J xx
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Date: 2002-11-07 08:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-11-06 02:14 am (UTC)Well you only had to ask :o
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Date: 2002-11-07 08:51 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-11-07 08:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-11-08 02:57 am (UTC)Poor things!
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Date: 2002-11-09 09:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-11-06 06:05 am (UTC)many japanese have an insane attitude that compromise is a sign of weakness and will treat you like shit if you show such 'weakness'... as far as i can see the only way to stop them is to proverbially tell them to go fuck themselves. i obviously don't know, but i'd guess that she isn't as secure in her 'authority' and she seems, and if you were to very firmly stand up to her things would change for the better.
.. but obviously you know the situation far better than i..
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Date: 2002-11-14 09:44 pm (UTC)I think I'm settled with keeping the colours just to christmas, and seeing as though my job and parents don't mind in England, then I'll wait till I get back. Not like I'm missing out on any special occasions like weddings or funerals
sorry it took a while, wanted to give more than a one line response, but it still didn't turn out as well as I thought it would...
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Date: 2002-11-20 06:50 am (UTC)sounds like a reasonable enough attitude, although i think i'd be more bolshy.. you know what's right for you; roll on christmas.
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Date: 2002-11-06 12:07 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-11-07 08:54 pm (UTC)I don't know if you've come to loath me or what
*hides*
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Date: 2002-11-08 11:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-11-07 04:50 am (UTC)Sorry, I can't think of anything to say :-( *hugs more*
Hope you feel better soon. x
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Date: 2002-11-12 05:09 pm (UTC)God I need to treat my friends better