mofette | Aug. 30th, 2002

Why do I give up so easily. I back down and give up on the things I want. Why? It's a stupid way of operating, but it does mean for an easier time on everyone else. I mean, if I give up and back down to someone else, then they get it, less hassle for them, and I be quiet and hide. I still don't really know why I do this... Fuck it.

I gave up on something else today. Threw in the towel as it were. I don't *really* mind, but hey, it's killed a part of my perk.

I went to the opening ceremony of the University. Some people gave speeches. First was the President of the University. He spoke in Japanese with a translator. Then a couple of other people, and then a Japanese lady. She spoke in simple sentences in Japanese. I started of knowing what she was saying, then I lost it completeley. Everyone else in the whole fucking place was laughing. I cried. I coudln't believe that everyone understood and not me. I mean, that's the reason I'm here, and I can't even get the basics! what the fuck?! Then an American student made a speech. He said "What have you got to offer this University?" I have nothing. I couldn't stop crying. Thankfully no-one noticed! I calmed down after a while, then looked for my other Igurisu-jins. Not a single one of them had turned up. So I went off for the free food, and ate soo much sushi I feel sick! OH well.

BTW, there's a rather shit troll on #uk_goffs right now, so any Ops about, please come kick some ass :)